well the pool went up this weekend, and shortly will be on its way back down. seems my yard is not as level as i thought it was.

do you ever get into one of those stages when the only thing that can reach your soul is music? well in my spiritual life that is the way it is so i have turned back to the music of the person that has spoken to me more than any other - nathan. you see, being a sound tech allows me opportunities that not everyone has. i've got a small collection of bootleg recordings, my best being the last service that nathan played at the soul cafe. that service remains at the top of my list of all time favorites and listening to it brings me back to a safe place. sometimes being safe is all i need. oh, how i desire to be safe in the Father's arms once and for all.

mas surgery?

we had our annual visit yesterday to the texas children's hospital in houston and the surgeon said to come back in 8 months for another evaluation. if at that time his arm is not better than he will undergo surgery #5.

please pray specifically for his arm to be able to supinate another 10-15 degrees - essentially to be able to turn his hand palm up. the doc said that aqua therapy is probably the best thing to do, so you guessed it...my new weekend project is to put in a pool. nothing fancy, just something deep enough to do some exercises.

just fyi - we're going for a healing on this one. even though the doc said the surgery is an easy one, i don't want to do it. i need some new personal God stories, and this one looks like a good one.

i almost forgot...pray for nick. he is diligently looking for work and a new start. he has done all the right things so it is now up to the Father and his new employer to get on the same page and make this happen. i expect exciting things for nick, but i'd like to see them soon, for nick's sake.

sorry i'm not really into the blogger thing at the moment, but i am feeling much better. when i know that i won't get fired for blogging at work, i might start up again.

blessings to you all - i dream of the time of when we can all be together endlessly in the presence of the Father. PAX!

nick and i went to the church on clay street tonight to help with the lights and sound for chris' last evening service - his set originally had 32 (really thirty two) songs in it which he cut down to about 28 or so, just fyi...it was a great set. nathan you would have been so proud of those guys.

anyway it seemed that my season of bitterness and pain had passed. i had a wonderful time, really. not sure what all this means, but it felt good.

thank you for all the phone calls, emails, and IMs. i needed those more than you can imagine. thank you for loving on me the way you did. also thank you to my wonderful wife who supported me in ways i know i have never supported her. i can see clearly now, the rain is gone...isn't that a song?

drink deeply of the Spirit this week, i'm gonna try to.

believe it or not, we have a stonehenge in the hill country

after walking around the place for a while it seemed that this place was just going to lead us directly to the drug store to purchase the iraqi desert value sized jug of chigger-tox. however before we left we did seem to find some treasure in big bubba.

it seems that big bubba had a belly button after all. now that's a nugget i didn't learn from my world history days. way to go small fry ty for finding this jewel.

in case you have missed the humor that this guy brought to the iraq conflict, here is some more of the iraqi information minister. i almost hope to see this guy again sometime. he is almost as good at telling lies as bill clinton is, but Mo has the cool hat.

enjoy

this week has been very difficult and humbling at best. you see, in my professional life i've always been somewhat of a big fish in a small pond and even at times i was blessed to be a big fish in a big pond - that's the way i like it. with all the new ownership changes at my job now, i am pretty much a small fish in a large ocean or in my eyes, the worst of all possible combinations. in case you are wondering what started all of this...we migrated to a different network this week and many of us, including myself, have lost complete control and ownership of the local network responsibilities. being self reliant to figure out my own problems or getting the "thank you"s from resolving someone elses, is gone. i now have to call an 800 number and ask for help...just like everyone else.

to some degree i guess that's where i am in my spiritual life. i go through cycles of being completely self reliant and get somewhat frustrated when i have to rely on God for anything, even though i know he can fix everything if i just talk to him. it's kinda like the old testament stories of the israelites when they'd see God part the waters of the red sea and then they'd scream because they didn't have anything to eat or drink. why couldn't they just live a simple life of trust and faith? i've always thought how foolish these people were, and sometimes now i find myself doing the same things.

i'm just grateful that the Father can use things in my life to allow me to see myself from a distance to see what's right and what's not. to allow me to see the stupid things i do and feel. for whatever reason, i know that i will have to keep learning this lesson my whole life until i give in and give up and live by complete trust and faith myself. maybe i should cut those israelites some slack.

anyway, at least the Father is still teaching me. when i stop learning and growing then i guess that's when i'll start getting worried. in the mean time i i'll start calling on Him more and trusting Him to be strong in my weakness and i guess i'll have to learn that 800 number for network support.

well we've nuked another building in kerrville this week. a very simple, non-theatning office supply store close to the center of town was leveled.

intermission. (i'll come back to this one...i'm still thinking about what i want to say)

in the meantime, go read my wife's stuff or maybe take a look at my buddies lora and the other kerri - spelled with an "i" in case you are confused. :)

ode to a lawnmower

spent a little quality time with my lawnmower this morning before attempting to cut my 3' tall grass (not an exaggeration) so i wrote a poem about it. by the way, i eventually borrowed a mower from someone else and then made plans to take mine to the shop next week. here goes (don't laugh)

carburetion
calibration
frustration.

conflagration
devastation
libation.

code me baby

i heard music to me ears this week when my beloved sent me an email at work telling me she wanted to learn some html code - i got goose bumps all over and got that new-in-love feeling all over again. isn't there a saying that says the couple that codes together stays together? maybe not. anyway can you imagine cozy nights by the fire talking about meta tags and java scripts? nah, me either. (for those of you who know code, you know that one look at my blog says that i'm clueless. for those that don't know anything about code, just roll with the story). PAX

God's letter in mp3 format - various languages

my new favorite band evanescence. in my opinion the second good thing to come out of arkansas - the first good thing is probably reading this blog.

When in England at a fairly large conference, Colin Powell was asked by the Archbishop of Canterbury if our plans for Iraq were just an example of empire building by George Bush.

He answered by saying that, "Over the years, the United States has sent many of its fine young men and women into great peril to fight for freedom beyond our borders. The only amount of land we have ever asked for in return was enough to bury those that did not return."

It became very quiet in the room.

having tea with bea and andrew, but i still need a hamburger, hopefully this tea thing won't last too long. (kidding, i'm looking forward to getting to know andrew).

you better be here @ wabi.

wabiSABI has started and i'm already missing it, go read andrew's blog to see what i mean. hopefully i can get my stuff done early today and get out of the office...SOON!

this isn't going to be a come listen to whomever pitch some propaganda about some agenda to do whatever the latest ministry kick is. it is going to be the people of God come together to share encouragement, differences, support, love, community, discipleship, and God only knows what else (really). please come be a part of this with me, with us.

blessings! - see you in Austin!

not too late to come to wabiSABI.

wabi is taking on a life of its own which is great - come add your part. never before have i seen the body of christ demonstrated so profoundly as with this (i.e. we all have different giftings and talents, but yet we are all important).

pray for our troops!

a big storm rolled in last night and a thunderclap hit nearby and i thought the windows were going to blow out of the house. i guess that's as close as i can get to understanding what the people of iraq are going through. i still support our government and their efforts 100%, but hurt for those that are scared for their lives. hopefully this will be over soon and the iraqis can rebuild their lives in a post-saddam world.

also learned this week that the brother of a good friend of mine, Andy Sparkman, is with the 101st ground forces that are constantly in the news. father protect him.

upray - a KCM website, but still worth a look

inspections?

i like what gary bauer said on fox news this morning..."we finally have 250,000 real inspectors in iraq."

btw ~ on the first day of this war iraq fired 7 scud missles that saddam swore he didn't have and that were against the un resolution for him to have in his possession.