just got one of len sweet's new books today - Jesus drives me crazy. i always get frustrated when i read his writings 'cause he challenges me to follow the calling in ways that i don't really want to. it's kinda fun to re-do and re-do, just to re-do church once again. after all i've never been quite happy with the bass response of our jbl subs. i think we should purchase twin 18's (really) and some 15's and go to a 4 way Xover setup. then the neighbors would know that we were serious about Christ...how, because we could knock all of their pagan pictures off their walls with our loud christian music. ok, so i'm sure i just pissed someone off by saying that, but when will be stand up, count the cost, and really be messengers of Christ? when will we take the good news to those that need it and not just deliver it to those that show up to our flavor of the day service?

guilty as charged you are! (as yoda would say to me). church is my cocoon, my shelter, my safe place and if anyone comes in that needs Christ, fine, they can ask me and i'll tell them (or send them to an elder, kidding). the point kerry? - i think our family is getting closer to going and telling. not talking about some vacation / mission trip thing, although that may be where it starts - talking bout a sell the house, pack the stuff, hop in a truck and follow God kind of thing. i just don't know where or how or to whom, but the time is approaching.

There was a time when one could almost be afraid to call himself a disciple of Christ because it meant so much. Now one can do it with complete ease because it means nothing at all.
-Soren Kierkegaard